Late Night Cereal

When there isn't junk in the house, I turn to the junkiest cereal in the house (raisin bran). Luckily I had some extra calories to use up - but it's still not something that I should have done (wayyy too late and too much to be eating after dinner). I guess it could be worse - could have been fast food or cake. :\

Cake of a Test!

Cake of a test - well - kind of. There was some cake leftover at my work from an occasion on Friday. Before I chose to change, I would have gotten a big piece of this cake and eat it all up in one sitting and possibly go back for more. Instead, I took a little piece of each the strawberry and chocolate sections.

I took a bite of the chocolate and it didn't taste moist or yummy like I had hoped. I threw the rest of the chocolate piece away as it 1) didn't taste good and 2) didn't give any type of good fuel to my body. I did enjoy the strawberry piece as it 1) tasted good. I wasn't sure of the calorie content, but I wanted another small piece, so I went back and enjoyed it as well.

By small piece, I mean maybe an inch by 2 inches. Again, I don't know how many calories it REALLY was, but I figured it was probably more than I wanted it to be - so I ate less the rest of the day. The cake was not worth the lowered calories for my other meals as I didn't feel full at dinner as I normally would.

I may have gone over my 1,500 calorie goal today or I may have still been under. I'm not sure because of the cake that wasn't even worth my time. At least I know for the future that a large amount of wasted calories leave me feeling empty.

Fuel for the Body

Today was a test of my body with physical endurance without much fuel. Deciding it was going to be warm the later it got - I wanted to mow some lawns this morning (without eating first - not smart). I made it through the first mow and due to a lack of money and a disgruntled conversation, decided to go straight through to mow the second lawn.

By this time, I was non-functional. The work got done but my body was paying for it. After some deliberation - a pizza was purchased and eaten. I didn't go over my calories for the day - I still stayed under, but that was the only thing I ate today. I feel alright, it didn't do too much damage. I can definitely tell when it's the weekend versus a week day as I stray away from the healthy 6 small meals or 3 small meals and 3 snacks to whatever, whenever.

Staying under my calories and working my body for two hours in a day is generally a good thing, but the fuel needs to go along with the exercise to be more efficient in burning it off.

Lower Calories, Increased Effort

Today I decided that I'm going to lower the amount of calories I consume in a day. I don't NEED to be consuming 1,646 calories a day. I worked with mydailyplate.com weight loss goal and determined the amount of calories I feel comfortable with allowing myself in a day is 1,546 - starting TODAY! In addition, I will stay UNDER my allotted calories.

With the limited amount of resources I have available to me - I am still feeling good about my daily half hour walks. I'm going to keep track of the distance I can complete in a half hour starting TODAY! I'm going to configure my strides on my pedometer I won at a healthy living conference I attended earlier this year.

I am also making the choice to live for myself. I am putting myself at the top of my list to accomplish my goals. I'm not lazy and I'm not going to be just because others around me are choosing that for themselves.

Walking Through Life

As expected, today was a hectic work day. The donut that was put on my car last night was flat this morning (borrowing a car for now). I got the other tire fixed up on my break and still had time to do my half hour walk!

Today I walked quickly and efficiently. I walked my normal route outside around my workplace. It took me five less minutes to do the whole route - so I did more until I reached 30 minutes! I was pleased to see that I am gaining speed now.

Do you ever see children just randomly run? It doesn't matter where they are going - it's just better to run there. *I* want to feel like that. I remember at one point when I was losing weight and getting healthy - I felt like my body wasn't fast enough for how fast I wanted to go - so I jogged instead of walked. I'm back to walking, but I know I will be jogging to destinations as soon as my body will let me. :D

Flat What?!

Busy work days cause enough annoyance - but a flat tire after working 10.5 hours, a doctors appointment (weighed in at 264 there, woot!), a half hour walk, a 2+ hour meeting and getting home right before 10pm to hear my tire pop and the hissing of air coming out of it, oye!

I have made good eating choices today. I have been keeping track of everything I eat on mydailyplate.com for the past few weeks, since deciding a change was in order. It's a good free site that is easy to use - big fan. I was under my 1,646 allotted calories and burned some off on top of it!

I have a big day tomorrow. It's going to be very busy - time for bed!

Weigh Me In!

Previous weight: 265.5lbs

Current weight: 265lbs

Weight lost: .5lbs

I suppose any loss is a good loss. I have been exercising for a half hour each day for two weeks. I feel good that I'm doing things to create a better life, but I know that I need to do more.

I have decided that I eat certain foods for a variety of three reasons. First, I eat to fuel my body. Second, I eat because it tastes good. Third, I eat because it comforts me. I realize I'm going to eat to fuel my body and because things taste good. I need to NOT eat foods for comfort.

I was looking for a tootsie roll in my bosses candy dish this week. There was only a chocolate toffee chew thing. I decided to go for it - popped it in my mouth, chewed it a couple of times and spit it out. No reason to eat wasted calories if it doesn't even taste good.

I need to learn balance in my world.

Vege-Vege-Vegetarian!

Here's how it all started. While dating one of those boyfriends - I was introduced to a life of a pure vegetarian. He made me dinner for our first "date". I was open minded - as I am with most everything. It was a tofu stir-fry and it was delicious!

As our relationship progressed so did the vegetarian teachings. I remember being a kid and only eating the breading off my McDonald's chicken nuggets. I never really ate my moms meatloaf or burgers. I was turned off if my chicken wasn't pure white - veins and whatnot were a deal breaker. Though through this time, I never really realized I was eating animals.

I wish someone would have pointed it out sooner. Told me that it's a pig, cow, chicken, turkey, etc. that I was eating. Showed me the relationship. I was 19-20 once this realization occurred and I haven't eaten meat since. There are multi reasons why I chose this way of life for myself. If you're really curious - you can ask.

I find that being a vegetarian does not equal being healthy. I did get down to a nice 185lbs when we were dating, but life changed and I decided to move on - only to gain A LOT of weight, though still being a vegetarian. This leads up to my current point. I'm still choosing to be a vegetarian as the thought of eating meat sickens me. I'm just now choosing to become a HEALTHY vegetarian again. :D

Miss Piggy No More!

The last time I was called Miss Piggy was back in Middle School. I decided instead of getting sad - I would get angry and use my size to my advantage by threatening to beat the kid up. That was the end of weight teases, at least to my face. Knowing my size could help me, it soon became a positive thing as a pre-pubecent kid.

As I got older, I hit puberty and decided starving myself and working out for 3 hours a day, every day was a great idea. I got down to my lowest weight ever, 165lbs. Speed up through boyfriend after boyfriend, drama after drama and I got to my all-time high this year of 272lbs.

Like any New Year's Resolution, I created this blog to tell the tale of me working towards a better, more accomplished life. After some thought, I decided a better, more accomplished life wasn't going to happen until (as Gandhi put it) I became the change I wished to see. My weight is no longer a positive thing - it has become a hindrance. It's holding me back from being the healthy, happy person I am.

I have begun the steps to Lb-eration!