Changing My Life

While I want to get healthy and lose my extra fat, I frequently find that I need to change many things in my life to make me happy. I constantly change things. I don't know if it's good or bad, but it's what I do. I decided that I need to further my education.

I currently have a Bachelor Degree, but I need to move on to a Master Degree to be happy with myself and move into a higher level of administrative potential. I'm not secure enough in myself and the economy to change my job situation or demand a substantial raise.

I'm slowly but surely helping my body back to where I need it to be. I will also keep my mind running through the classes I'm going to be taking. It's all about mind and body and I want to make sure both are where I want them to be. It should be an interesting adventure!

Getting into the Groove

I did a little better today than I have this weekend. I'm not back to work and thus not back to planning meals and snacks. I ate less today - which is a good start. I'm sure tomorrow will be much better as there won't be any perceived temptations.

I can't wait until I get to the point to where I don't have to worry about all this stuff. I can understand that one cupcake is okay - but not six! It's all about moderation and getting the nutrition that I need.

I'm actually looking forward to tomorrow. Back to the grind, I suppose.

Life and Death

My dad's life motto seems to be "Death is Certain, Life is Not". As someone that doesn't want anything to do with death because every time I think of someone close to be dying I break out in tears for hours - it's a very true motto to have. He has it tattooed on his arm with death (a skull or grim reaper - or idk) and I have ideas of getting it on me as well one day.

This doesn't have anything to do with weight loss. It has more to do with physical appearance and death. It doesn't matter what you look like on the outside - Farrah Fawcett died and she looked like she was in her 40s (thanks to whatever surgeries she has had, I'm sure). It's how we treat our bodies and take care of our mind that gets us to an old age.

My dad is right - death will come for all of us (and as I say that my eyes swell with tears). But we are all trying to make sure that we live a little longer by getting ourselves healthy - not skinny and the type of pretty we see in movies but truly healthy and happy.

RIP Michael Jackson - your music has touched us all.